OkamiJubei

I am pretty sad to say this, but around October 4th, I had been to the doctor. It turns out my heart rate had gone up to 1.5x more than normal. So many things had happened, but the possible number 1 cause is a breakup with my RP partner which I have done with for over 9 years. My former partner just becoming more distant with me, avoid sharing her feelings and problems with me (which I tend to share my problems with her most of the time), and stops RPing with me for over 3 months... The same month when I had an arm fracture and was recovering. (Okay, the first 2 months were mutual) but after I recover my bone and surgery (which I can pick up my cat now without a problem), she just keeps saying not in a mood. I ask her if anything is wrong, but she's being kept in denial and avoid saying much to me like she use to. It really hurts my feelings and my self-esteem, feels like she stops and didn't care about me anymore even after my broken forearm. Just don't know how to deal with things without her now... Feels like she had lied to me that she was telling me that if we no longer chat again, she would feel very sad, but I don't see her grieved at all or even try to speak about it. That just makes it feel more deceptive and feels like I've been played like a fiddle again.

Though the doctor already gives me some drugs (ativan) to ease my anxiety issue. They seem pretty effective, as of course I use them by following the instructions on the bottle. Just don't know how could I live on at times... Just never had anyone like her... And don't know if I ever will.

This is it, on July 17, 2019 at 6:15 AM PST.

I will have an arm surgery on my ulna bone. They'll screw in and install a plate on my left arm. I am really nervous and hope things go well and hope nothing bad will happen when I'll be sedated. Just couldn't believe it has happens to me and resort to this.

The orthopedist inform that the ER staff are pretty shotty to handle and care the patients for that I cannot argue with him.

Just hope things go okay and hope I don't have to go through lots of pain during and after surgery.

Hello, around June 21st,2019 @ 2:40 PM Pacific time. I have been to an emergency room.

I had injured my left wrist by fracturing the radius the left ulna bone. 

It all happen when I was riding my bike and suddenly the wheel on my bike just skid against the curb and suddenly I fell down and break my wrist. Few people start to help me after they heard my cry which just takes less than a minute when it happens. Then the police and the fire rescuer start to stay by my side and the paramedics arrived and took me to the ER. 

Of course when I'm in the ER, they just make me wait there for 5 hours and keep giving questions which I've already answered. But they give me an X-ray and painkillers and must call for an orthologist to advise and help my fracture. I'm really scared for I never had a fracture before and frustrated and angry the staff taken too much time when me and other people are in extricating pain.

Hello everyone, I have a great time I have been though these couple of days dispite an annoyance I've gone though today but still doing nice. About this passed 14th day of March, it was my b-day as a couple of days after that, I've gone to a mineral show and I seen plenty of interesting rocks, fossils, precious stones, mineral stones, etc and its great. I even pick up a piece of a Russian meteorite and its pretty unreal. Not only its amazing to hold one but also the weight of it is tremendous. Compare to rocks in my backyard (which is a same size as the meteor) The meteor is like 3x more heavy then the rock itself.

I'll post some pics later just to present the rocks and minerals and even a couple of meteors I have possessed at the moment.

Hello everyone, just like to tell you guys that it's a day to remember from this around afternoon. There was an annular eclipse event that had passed by my area, it's imperfect as I only see it in a crescent form but its really amazing to be though with it again after the last 13 years.

On the other subject, two hours before the eclipse begin, there is a big fire going on near by my town as it leaves out a big smoke in the sky like a cloud (which is not in the sun's way). The fire have been out after the fire fighters controlled it for about an hour and a half. Everything seem to be doing okay but still smell a bit smokey.